DO you know what love is? True deep pasionte love? Love is not complicated or stupid. Its something fresh and new. You never know what”s coming next. Love is such a crazy feeling. such a rush and completness within life. i have been so blessed to have this feeling in my life.I would not change any of this for the world.
I think I am in Love… and if this is Love then I never want it to end, i yearn for him to be here when hes not. i dread not being able to wake up beside him every morning.. i cant wait to be able to do it all the time! it’ll be 3 years on the 21 and its been the best three years of my life.
At times like these i wish i wasnt a responable person. i wish that i didnt have things that i needed to do. just things that i wanted to do. i wish i had nothing in the world to worry about except the things i care about. i dont like being in the real world. i wish it was a fairytale and everything had a happy ending.
I wish that i would have told my new boss that i couldnt work till monday becuase i had someplace to be this weekend.
i wish that i had wesley laying in my bed with me. right now….
oh how i miss him so. hes been with me pretty much all week and i was with him all weekend. i am not liking him not being right beside me watching, listening, laughing, and loveing me. to have that sweet smile and green eyes look back at me in the dim of the tv light.
So I have compleyly done like 3 in a half months worth of work in 1 night! I am so proud yall have no idea! I have finished my research paper, my occupation profile, my exercise profiles, and these stupid critcal thinking profile things… people say that college is easy but its not. Hah. But now all I have to do is 6 review quizs, 4 surveys and some annatation.. which is what I will be doing tomorrow… See why couldn’t I haven’t been this productive and well organized all semester? I guess I do work well under pressure.. but now I have to clean off my bed because I am surrounded by paper, pens, and notebooks! So if I am going to sleep then I’ll need to clean this off, but after that I will be going to the bathroom then finding my kitten so she can finally sleep with me now that my friends dog is not staying here tonight! Hah… I am so tired I’v got a headach either that or I have my hair pulled back to tight…
I’m so tired.. Iv been up for like 4 hours and I already want to pass out and just sleep. I had to take a pain pill last night, I was chasing B back to my house which I shouldn’t have done at all…. It still hurts and it’s 3:03…. So yea. I layed out earlyer but it was just way to hot out side.. I love summer but not when its fucking 90 degrees out side. But I’v already taken a shower and everything… I just ate and now I want a nap. Haha I am so pathetic.. I know. But hey its summer and I want a nap. Hah and by God I’m going to get my nap.
I should be back soon.